There are some big changes on the horizon for you right now, Leo, and this may have an effect on your romantic affairs. Whether you are single or attached, you may find that you are put in the path of a major life event that will mark the end of a formative period for you as well as the beginning of a period where you will have more independence. Even if you are in a relationship, you will find now that in many ways you are on your own, and this will bring with it an increased sense of responsibility and accountability. You may want to spend today in some deep thought or reflection. Take a review of the situation and recognize that you can give yourself a new chance in life if you just take the leap today.

“I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish enough “Hello’s” to get you through the final “Good-bye.”

It is amazing to me the crazy that can be induced by things like movies. The fact that NASA feels it needs to tell us why the world won't end in 2012 in it's Frequently Asked Questions section is equal parts sad and lolarious.

This deleted scene from Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince has made it's way online. I wish it and more scenes its equal in tone and atmosphere had been included in the original theatrical cut. Without getting into another long review of long, the movie was too much Kids Being Kids and wasn't balanced by enough emotional weight. This clip is about stillness before climax and the deep breath before the storm.

I wonder how many other wonderful things were cut? How many Snape things? I would love to see the rest of the Hagrid's Hut takes to see if Rickman played them all as flatly as the one that made the final cut.

( So that HIMYM episode. )

On the other hand, whooo Doctor Who this weekend!

looks like everyones happy but me.

why cant everything be simple.

why cant you live next door.

why am i such a mess.

1. Go here (a random Wikipedia article). The first random article title is the name of your band.
2. Go here (a page of random quotes). The last four/five words of the last quote is the title of your album.
3. Go here (a random flickr page). The third picture, no matter what, is your album cover.
4. Make albums covers with photo editing software.
5. Post it.

BRB CREATING THIS ALBUM.

Title: Fresh Start
Rating: G
Length: ~1,300
Spoilers?: Set within Journey's End
Characters/Pairings: Ten2/Rose, with hints of Donna, Martha, Mickey, Jack and Ten
Summary: On board the TARDIS, the part-human Doctor gets his first chance to talk to Rose Tyler.
Excerpt: The Doctor watched Jack and Rose hug, suddenly acutely aware that he hadn’t hugged Rose yet. He frowned. Jack Harkness hugging Rose Tyler before he did? That couldn't be right.

Author's notes: goldy_dollar posted this tiny background moment over at doctor_rose_fix and wanted someone to fic it. So... I did. And then I made her beta it, so I think I got the last laugh.

( The Doctor watched Sarah Jane step through the TARDIS doors, his mouth drawn into a pensive line. )

Generally I don't think much about Christmas until December 1, because I firmly believe December -- and December alone -- is the month of Christmas and that the holiday should not seep out at the corners of the calendar the way it tends to in malls and media. The last few years I've been breaking my own rule, largely because I've been making rather than buying some gifts, and that takes more time than December itself allows. I still forbid things like decorating, carols, and shopping pre-December, though, just so we're clear on the rules.

So! Because I want to try and get all my cards delivered in a timely fashion this year and because christycorr reminded me, anyone who would like a seasonal card in the mail please drop a comment. If you got a card from me last year and your address hasn't changed, you can safely assume I've got your mailing address. Otherwise, I am screening comments so please leave me that, too! :D

To all those who would like to send me cards, please note that I've moved and have a new mailing address. If you would like it, let me know and I'll email or PM it to you.

In other news, I stumbled across this post by apiphile today about why comedy is important, and I think it's excellent and wanted to share.

And, in other other news, my parents randomly bought me a new hand vacuum last week because the one I had stopped working in the summer. It is especially designed for sucking animal hair out of carpet and upholstery, so for the first time in almost ever my comfy blue chair is once again cat hair free. Woot! Roomba seems very fond of this new small appliance addition, but velcro-kitty is not so impressed. His reaction was something like OMG THERE'S A NOISY ON MY CHAIR WHUT?

( So today is November 9, which is definitely the craziest day in modern German history. )

My first political memory is of 9.11.1989. I was four years old then, and we were baking the first Christmas cookies (they were jam-filled). I had this huge pot of jam that I was licking clean, and my father sat me down in front of our tiny black and white TV screen, which showed people standing on the wall and crying and hammering holes into it, and he explained to me the significance of it all—the GDR, socialism, democracy. I remember this so clearly. [It's very likely that this actually happened a couple of days after 9.11., because I remember the pickaxes, and that part came later, but still, the sentiment counts!]

What's your first memory of a political/historical event?

just isnt coping at all.

it hurts so much,

i cant phyiscally go on without you.

oh fuck this.

Star Trek XI fic rec: So Wise We Grow, captanddeastar's startrekbigbang fic (eventual Kirk/Spockm 81,000 words, R). It's kid!fic—Spock finds himself having to parent, with Kirk's help, the son T'Pring left behind—and it's all kinds of adorable.

So! Christmas cards! (Again, not hand-made, because I fail at arts-and-crafts-ness.) Drop me a note if you want one, and I'll do my best to mail them at some point before December 25th.

[Note to newcomers: I've yet to manage to meet this deadline. Extrapolating from my last few years' Christmas-card-sending attempts, I'd say you're likely to receive your card in mid-January. I apologise in advance.]

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I want to take anyone who says Arts degrees are easy into a dark alley somewhere and beat them over the head with all the readings and essays and papers and miscellaneous shit I have to do. I have this list of things to do that's tacked onto my bulletin board but for every thing I cross off three more points manage to find their way there somehow. FUCK ME.

im going to quit smoking pot for half a year, to get myself in shape.


not that it inhibits my lifestyle whatsoever, its just i think ill be more focused on myself and my goals without it.

i think.

i hope to learn from the last few months.

as much as it hurts to let you go, and let you be who you are and live your life without me.

if its what you want. its what must happen.


after spending an evening with my cousin ive come to notice things about myself and my family

were underachievers because we choose happiness and convience over self improvement.

i dont know wether its right.

i dont know if its wrong.

i want to be able to stop, and think about who i am and where i want to be

i want to know where im going.

lifes taking its toll on me and its only been 18 years.

i dont like the fact that everysong in my itunes makes me think of you.

and reminds me of when i stayed over.

they were truley the happiest 4 days of my life, i wish i had a rewind button so i could go back and live those days again and again.

i love you with all my heart and you'll have it forever.

i cant believe i missed out on being happy for the rest of my life because of a stupid emotional breakdown.


i wanted to reach out to you and all i did was push you away.

i do need you. your like oxygen.

these feelings are so strong i actually scare myself

everytime i picture your face in my mind or hear your voice in my head my heart skips two beats.

is it normal to think about one person so much.

too many people in my life have told me yournot good for me, when i know you were the only goog thing i had in my life.

maybe its a good thing, cause i tried living without you when i came home and found myself thinking about life would be so much better in your arms and i just stopped fuctioning.

you make me a better person.

you make me complete.

and i took it all for granted because i thought i knew what was best for me.

ill never forget your smile, the sound of your laugh, the moments we spent togeather in the dead of the night.

the feel your lips on my skin.

i dream about it everyday.

i wake up most morning and feel the other side of the bed.

in such a stupid childish hope you might be there.

if i could wish anything.

it would be to take back every bad word ive ever said to you, everything ive ever said to make you upset and bottle them all up and throw them into the sea, never to be seen again.

you are the sun and i fucking worship you.

if this is ever comes to your attention i hope you know its you im taking about.

i hope you know how much you've changed my life for the better.
and i want to thank you for it.

thank you alan, you were the one for me.


 

 

I mentioned at work the other day that I felt there was a major Sci-Fi TV show hole gap in my life, what with Battlestar Galactica being over and it being a very Who-light year, and someone told me I should check out Sanctuary.

I have, and it's awesome in a cracky kinda way. It's one of those shows that draws from myth and folklore and gives prominent historical figures super powers and has secret societies, and I'm a sucker for that kind of thing. They don't build most of the sets, but shoot a lot of green screen with CG rendered sets in the background, which is a little bit jarring but also gives it a unique look and feel that sometimes really works, considering the subject matter. The actor playing the lead male role throws me off because sometimes he looks and sounds like James Marsters and sometimes he looks and sounds like Tom Cruise, and it's a strange mix of impressions. It also mixes up some gender roles which is interesting, putting female characters as aggressive and having them fill the roles of physical protectors and analytical scientific thinkers while the male lead is more intuitive, emotional, and plays less of a role in the Ass Kicking that happens in each episode. They manage to do it generally without making the males seem less masculine or the females less feminine, which definitely appeals to me.

Anyway. This show has exactly the kind of bait a show needs to lure in an unsuspecting Chelle. And lured in I have been.

actually fuck my life.

there really is no point anymore

i miss him so fucking much.

it hurts.

it hurts so bad.

There is some major moving of office furniture happening right now. Occasionally expletives can be heard from underneath various desks.

And I have officially run out of tea at work. This is almost a disaster. Must remember to stockpile some more this weekend.

New Boom De Yadda commercial from Discovery Channel! Because the world is awesome. And it's so catchy! :D

I meant to write another chunk for NaNo last night, but what actually ended up happening was I researched Oxford, clockwork, and perpetual motion machines all night long. D: I looked at the clock and suddenly it was midnight already. *headdesk* This is what happens when I don't do appropriate planning before I start writing you know.

Also: the Oxford collegiate system is totally wack and difficult to understand. I'm working under the assumption that they're kind of like the houses at Hogwarts with dorms and common areas in each of them and everything, but that students don't necessarily take all their classes in that particular college building. ETA: OMG so much thanks to those who took the time to clarify what life at Oxford University is like, you are amazing! (If anyone out there knows otherwise, please correct me!) But it is also kinda cool 'cause I'm totally inventing my own college for my story, just because I can. Now I just have to decided what title the female Head of House at my imaginary college will have.

Poll #1481681 Because I can't choose, we have ticky boxes!
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 14

Head of College titles: which is awesomest?

If it sounds like procrastination and looks like procrastination... \o/

I'm having fun writing my little steampunk universe, even thought it's the main reason I'm getting sucked into the research vortex that is Wikipedia. Well. That and the fact that I'm populating my story with dozens of characters from folklore, fiction, and history.